pathetic, party of one.

clayton told me tonight on the phone that he misses me. he said that after going back to tallahassee and talking to girls at work, he knows that i’m not like any other girl. i almost cried.

and then i spent the rest of the night looking at wedding dresses online.

travis and i had a brief but profound exchange at the airport while clayton wasn’t around. he said after spending a few days with clayton, he approves (which was actually important for me to hear) and that he thinks we are on the right track. i told him how i didn’t want clayton to decide to marry me out of pressure or obligation or ultimatum. he nodded and thought for a second wearing a typical travis face. and then said, “just don’t wait forever.”

i feel like this moment, this time apart, is giving me the space i need to decide where the line is between waiting for the right time and not waiting for forever.