you can take the girl out of college…

tomorrow is the first day of what promises to be a very intense, very time-consuming year and a half for my b.f. he starts physician assistant school at 8am in the morning and i can’t help but worry that i won’t see him again until 6pm on the night of his coating ceremony a year from now. i am so completely excited about his taking the first steps towards his career, and i know there is a part of him that is doing all of this for me — to be able to take care of me. i love him for that. i went with him to buy his first pair of scrubs this weekend. i am so proud of him i can’t put it into words. but there is such an ugly selfish part of me that comes to the surface when i am in situations like this, e.g. clayton’s entire run with the athletic training program. i am trying so so hard to prepare myself for this next phase so that i don’t go completely nuts when a week goes by and i haven’t seen him. it’s getting harder, though, as every hour we’re apart i realize more and more that i never want to be apart from him. i apologize that this entire site has turned into nothing but me gushing about clayton, but i promise he deserves it.

tuesday i am teaching my very first group exercise classes. who would have ever thought.

one thing that should help keep me busy is a service project i am involved in at church. there is a big community outreach mission starting on the second saturday of every month. volunteers can show up and choose where they would like to serve that day, from local parks to single mothers’ homes. leah and i are leading one of the children’s ministry teams. i am pretty excited to finally be getting involved in something like this. i am actually doing, instead of just talking. we had a meeting this week to go over some details with our contacts at the site. i felt like such a grown up…except that no one told me how formal the meeting was and i showed up in a tank top and flip flops. sorry, but it’s freaking summer in florida.