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being in tampa is starting to get lonely.

last weekend, however, was anything but lonely. thursday night in tallahassee was a whole lot more fun than i was anticipating. i went to aj’s with clayton, tori, wes, elizabeth, johnny, erin, and two of tori’s friends. also in aj’s were the twelve other people left in tallahassee for the summer. so we basically had the place to ourselves. a couple games of really bad pool playing and several drinks later, we were having a grand ol’ time.

friday clayton and i went to pace for meredith’s wedding. i realized that being in pace is no longer scary. it actually felt comfortable — something i thought might never happen. it helped that we stayed at meredith’s and not at clayton’s parents’ house. meredith looked gorgeous. if this makes sense, she looked exactly how i think she should have looked on her wedding day. she looked like meredith, only a very pretty getting-married meredith. that’s how i want to look on my wedding day.

i also realized that if anyone writes “get ‘er done” on the car that i am supposed to be driving away in, i will refuse to get in it.

tomorrow i am going shopping for haven’t-seen-him-in two-years jeans. i am more nervous than i’d say out loud.