a love song, of sorts

if someone had bet me a million dollars that one day i would miss tallahassee, i would have shook their hand, called them a mean name, and laughed in their face without hesitating. well, someone should have bet me because today, right at this moment, they would be able to retire. as i am almost finished unpacking and organizing my “new” room, it is hitting me. the people, the places, the routine that have completely become memories. however recent, that life is my past. it’s a huge deal and, without or without intending to, i wasn’t giving it the importance it deserved. i like change; i always have. but the excitement and possibility of the next few years of my life have not yet been able to erase this void in my heart where florida state and the experiences and relationships it offered me once filled.

i miss nicole and tori and wes. i miss nicaragua. i miss london and the fab five. i miss jessica and our closet sized room in kellum hall. i miss gilmore girls, first with nicole and now with tori. i miss talking all week about going out and then deciding instead to rent a movie on friday night. i miss finally being the first to register for classes and getting exactly what i wanted. i miss tori and wes’ smiles when i start getting tipsy. i miss jordan. i miss the thumb tacks we hung our keys on in bradford oaks. i miss fighting with clayton about who should drive home. i miss club publix…there are no drunk college students at the wesley chapel publix. i miss getting carded. i miss runnning by tcc and waiting for clayton to drive by. i miss making coffee at 11pm because that’s when i decided to start studying. i miss my ridiculously loud coffee bean grinder. i miss the note on the fridge that says “please make sure fridge and freezer are completely shut.” i miss the pet store at tallahassee mall and the puggles that were there for about 3 seconds. i miss getting crushes on the absolute nerdiest professors. i miss megan wallace and sanon. i miss riding my bike to school. i miss that comfy yellow couch…so much!

and this is just a few of the not-so-terrible things that i found in tallahassee.