i may not like it and i may complain about it, but i am dealing with it. just like i have dealt with it for the last four years. the girl whose boyfriend has to work, the girl whose boyfriend has to study. i have been the third wheel too many times to count. i’m just so tired of waiting and waiting and waiting. i love you, you’re worth it; i get that. all i’m saying is, it’s been a …

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i hope he wasn’t offended. sometimes the sarcasm just doesn’t translate electronically. and sometimes the sarcasm just isn’t funny.
maybe i should stop talking to nicole (see, that was sarcastic). it makes me miss her so much. i hate being outside the everyday, tiny details. it sucks sucks sucks being so far away. i am horrible at having close girl friends. i don’t know how to do it; i am not perky or bouncy or outgoing. but nicole has always gotten …

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tomorrow is the first day of what promises to be a very intense, very time-consuming year and a half for my b.f. he starts physician assistant school at 8am in the morning and i can’t help but worry that i won’t see him again until 6pm on the night of his coating ceremony a year from now. i am so completely excited about his taking the first steps towards his career, and i know there is a part of him …

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I see the twinkle play hide and seek with the numbers crunching in the corner of your eyes as the white gold flirts with the low lighting and the lust in my smile. The center stone remains a mystery we’ll wait and see about, but my finger is left naked in its honesty of letting you see how I’d wait for your knee for eternity.Does it help if I promise to say yes if you ask?Back to the heat of …

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birthday weekend was nice. friday night i was tired after work, but clayton and i grabbed a drink at frenchy’s on the beach. we sat outside right on the water and it was romantic and surprisingly relaxing. saturday i went shopping (because that’s one of my all time favorite things to do for my birthday), played tennis with my dollface, and went out to hyde park cafe with some friends. i was glad that everyone i asked showed up, but …

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is it sad that two of my absolute favorite holiday movies are home alone and home alone 2? i will ponder as i watch the latter right now.
so i didn’t get exactly what i was hoping to get with the job situation, but i was offered some regular part time weekly shifts. still pretty exciting considering the nothing i had going on. the pay is not bad at all and i worked last thursday and friday, and have four full …

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i know i’m a jerk. it’s a big deal, i promise. i am so so sorry.

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